My 2014 in Quotes

My year-end song: Hero by Family of The Year

Two days from now, another year will start and I just want to look back to everything that I have learned, experienced and realized this year. Let me guide you to my 2014 through these quotes.

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1. “Because then maybe she’d realize, if only for a split second that even though the world doesn’t matter to her, she matters to the world.” -David Levithan, Every Day

-This year made me realize that I am important even though I repeatedly convince myself that I am not. I have learned that I can touch people’s hearts, that I can be a part of their lives. That I am not just. I am someone. And this someone, matters.

2. “I guess I’m sorry is a way to say I want it to be better. Even if it’s difficult. Even if it hurts.” -David Levithan and Rachel Cohn, Naomi and Ely’s No Kiss List

-Saying I’m sorry sincerely was the one thing I cannot do. Especially when I truly need to say it. It’s one of my level five diseases and I struggled so hard to get rid of it. This time, I finally succeeded.

3. “We always see our worst selves. Our most vulnerable selves. We need someone else to get close enough to tell us we’re wrong. Someone we trust.” -David Levithan and Rachel Cohn, Naomi and Ely’s No Kiss List

-I am made of walls. Thick, indestructible walls. Only a few people can enter them and because of that, I found it hard to connect with people. Whenever someone tries to know me in a deeper level, I put my walls up. But this year, I tried to open it bit by bit. I told myself to trust those people, to relax and let them get to know me. It wasn’t that hard, after all.

4. “I think a lot of people want to be someone but we are scared that if we try, we won’t be as good as everyone imagines we could be.” -Ava Dellaira, Love Letters To The Dead

-I fear disappointments. I fear the look in people’s eyes when they realize that you are not what they think you are. I wish I could say, “To hell with people. I don’t care about their judgments.” But I do. I do care about what they think of me. But at the same time, I don’t want to be just an imagination. I don’t want to be just a thought. I want to be someone. I want people to really know me. To know that I am just like them, that I am also filled with flaws, that I also make stupid decisions, and that I also have limitations.

5. “So maybe when we can say things, when we can write the words, when we can express how it feels, we aren’t so helpless. Maybe when we can tell the stories, however bad they are, we don’t belong to them anymore. They become ours.” -Ava Dellaira, Love Letters to the Dead

-Most of the time, I keep to myself. I never really like telling people stuff even if I am friends with them. But Ava Dellaira is right, when we tell people about our stories, those stories become ours–no matter how powerful those stories are. Sure, you’ll feel vulnerable but that’s alright. At least, you can get rid of the heavy feeling in your chest.

6. “Life doesn’t have to be so planned. Just roll with it and let it happen.” -Jenny Han, To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before

-I always wonder why fate screws up with my plans every time. Then I realized that sometimes, you just need to let things happen. That you don’t have to be so cautious all the time, that you must meet with the moment not plan your way through it.

7. “Becoming fearless isn’t the point. That’s impossible. It’s learning how to control your fear, and how to be free from it.” -Veronica Roth, Divergent

-Growing up, people will tell you how to not be afraid. How to be fearless. But you cannot really be afraid of nothing. There will always be something that will scare you and that’s okay because we are made to be afraid of things. That’s how we learn how to be brave. That’s how we discover courage.

8. “Dreams are only dreams until you wake up and make them real.” -Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story

-No one’s going to make my dreams happen. No one’s going to flick his or her wand and make my dreams come true. I must do it myself.I must take the steps into making my dream a reality. It would be a hard and confusing road. But it’s a road that I am willing to take.

9. “I have to say that although it broke my heart, I was, and still am, glad I was there.” -Markus Zusak, The Book Thief

-A lot of not so good things happened this year and although all they left me were ugly scars, I am still glad that those things occurred. It’s a bit cliche, but if not for those things, I wouldn’t be this strong. These scars are my trophy. They are my daily reminder that I have survived a very difficult battle.

10. “Don’t cling to things because everything is impermanent.” -Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie

-Cling to words, to moments, to memories, to infinities, to feelings–to people. Cling to them because most of the time, these things could stay forever.

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Aaaand, that’s it. I really don’t know how to end this post. Lol. Thank you for being a part of my 2014. See you next year! 🙂


Book Review: Fire with Fire



Note: This is a re-post from my other blog and SPOILERS ALERT!  


After the perfect revenge plan of Lilia, Kat and Mary failed, they are back to square one. (Not to mention that they have to avoid going to jail.) Reeves is still an asshole and Reenie actually got MEANER. So, the girls struggle to their daily lives because really, what can they do? Until one night, Mary found out Reeves’ secret. He likes the straight A+ princess; Lilia. Now, the operation break Reeves’ heart starts!


Fire with Fire. Oh, what can I say? It’s as good as the first book but with more mind-blowing plot twists that I never even predicted. (For the first time in forever~) Long story short, this novel is also AHHHH-MAZING! I swear Jenny and Siobhan are perfect authors!


The characters are still not annoying. Well, except for Alex who needs to get his shit right. I mean, I get that he’s a teenage boy and with all the hormones he have, it’s possible to be a confusing person. But, ughhhhh. In the first book, he hooks up with Kat and of course, I ship them because DUH. And after that, it was revealed that he’s actually in love with Lilia. What the hell, man?! You can’t possibly be in love with two beautiful girls! You will ruin their friendship! Or their lives! (But most likely, their ovaries. Lol. Kidding.) Of course I’m ready to forgive him because I cannot hate someone like Alex. He’s so sweet and nice. Really, he’s the embodiment of the perfect guy in every girl’s dreams. But seriously, he needs to choose.


Meanwhile, I don’t have any complaints with Lilia except for her getting all the blessings that the universe could provide. Seriously, HOW CAN YOU BE PRETTY, SMART AND RICH AT THE SAME TIME?! It’s so unfaiiiiiiiir. She’s even surrounded with boys like Alex and Reeves. That’s just so messed up. (In a good way) If Lilia exists in real life, I would probably hate her for being perfect. (Gahd, I’m so shallow but seriously.)


Anyway, time to talk about my favorite character, Kat. I don’t know why other readers hate Kat. How could they? She’s the most realistic character among the three and she’s everything I want to be. Strong. Honest. Brave. It’s like the world can never bring her down no matter what kind of problems it throws to her. Also, I can relate to her wish to leave Jar Island. I want to do that, too. To leave my hometown and forget every damn thing that happened to me in here and start anew. Create a new phase in my life and control the parts of me that they will know. It is my dream to escape this paper town with so many paper people and shitty memories. Maybe that’s the reason why I can understand Kat more than anyone else in this series. Because I can see a piece of me in her.


Moving on with Mary. Oh, Mary. Or should I say Elizabeth? Uhm…no. I shouldn’t. Because if I do, I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I’m pretty sure that thoughts about the third book will fill my mind until I cannot think of anything else besides it. Anyway, in the first part of the novel, I pitied her. Because she’s miserable and living with a witch-like, half-insane aunt is not helping her. Not to mention that she’s in love with the sick bastard; Reeves. (Although, I kind of like Reeves now. But only when he’s with Lilia. They’re perfect for each other!)


Life is so mean to Mary. I know that she shouldn’t be paranoid that she’s got super powers (I’m calling it super powers. :P) and instead use it to blur her attention to Reeves and shift it to another one like, I don’t know, magic? Witch craft? Whatever.

I love Mary, I really do. Although sometimes her weakness is driving me crazy. That’s why when it’s revealed that she’s actually dead, I’ve completely loss my ability to think and speak. Because, Oh. My. Gosh. It cannot happen. NO. I mean, that’s freaking impossible. And MEAN. Also, creepy. NO. IT CAN’T HAPPEN. THEY CANNOT BE SERIOUS! JUST. NO.


But of course, they’re serious. She’s dead. Really dead. Her dad’s dead too. UGHHHHHH. This is so damn depressing and mind-blowing. Thank you Reeves and may you accept the fucking asshole of the year award!!! This is crazy. But then, I realized the many signs that I didn’t notice in the first place. I think that Reeves knows that Mary is dead which is a completely sane reason as to why he said “Go fuck yourself.” to her on Halloween night. And the name. Lilia mentioned it to Reeves the morning after Rennie died and he just exclaimed, “Who’s Mary?” Also, when the mummy boy from Halloween asked for her name, she said “Elizabeth.” And there’s the bouncer, too. OMFG. THIS IS SO FREAKING REAL. I can’t believe it. Asdfghjkl.


Mary is officially dead, and she realized it after accidentally killing Rennie. (I ain’t even mad.) Now, she’s on a murderous hunt. Well, good luck Reeves. I was hoping Lilia and you can have beautiful babies but if an insane teenage ghost is out there, thirsty for your blood, how can you freaking live?! Thinking about it makes my head hurt. I SERIOUSLY NEED BOOK THREE!!! 


But, all in all, it was a wonderful read and I’m definitely recommending it to all of you! Again, the writing is perfect. I cannot ask for more. Jenny and Siobhan, you guys rock! So please, pretty please, can you release it a month earlier? Like maybe, on August? Because September is too far away and I think I might die waiting for Ashes to Ashes. Have mercy on your readers. Please? No? Okay. Lol.


My rating: 5/5 stars.

Book Review: To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before

15749186Song for the day: TC and Sam Kang’s Kiss. ♥

Lara Jean have loved exactly five boys in her life and to each boy that she have loved, she dedicates a letter. To her, those letters are a way of saying goodbye because in those letters, she doesn’t hold anything back and once she finished writing them, she will no longer be consumed by her all consuming love. But one day, her teal hatbox goes missing and her letters got sent to the five boys she have ever loved.




Okay. *breathes*! Seriously, how did you manage to write a beautiful story out of a simple plot, Jenny Han? How?!

I admit that it wasn’t as good as the Burn for Burn series but who cares? This book made me laugh, smile, cry and squeal and that’s the important thing, right? Actually, I listed my top five squeal-worthy moments in this novel.

Here it goes:

5. The scene in the library wherein Peter K. rest his head on Lara Jean’s lap!!! I was so disappointed when NOTHING happened on that part. Lol.

4. The cupcake baking scene! This scene is overflowing with cuteness! It feels like they are newlyweds and Kitty is their adorable daughter.

3. The Peter Parker scene. Because, duh.

2. The I-kissed-you-because-Josh-might-be-looking-even-though-I-will-still-do-it-if-he’s-not-looking scene!


1. “I think I like you, Lara Jean.” Ughhhhh. PETER K!!!!! I will give everything just to have someone like you in my life. Haha. But seriously, I was squealing like crazy in this part!


In case you are curious as to why I didn’t include the hot tub scene, I have only one answer: That scene is HOT. I didn’t squeal in that part because I was too busy screaming out loud. So there you go! The five most squeal-worthy moments in this novel. But of course, this review will not end here.

Moving on…

This novel somehow reminds me of Korean dramas. For example, the fake boyfriend and contract thing. If you’re an avid fan of Korean dramas, you will probably understand me. This ‘thing’ is so famous in dramas especially in Korean ones but Jenny Han managed to write it smoothly. (Another reason why I love her.) Also, it doesn’t have the annoying cliches that you’ll find in a K-drama.

Another thing that I love in this book is the characters. I know that some people think that Lara Jean is childish but I think it’s just appropriate for her age. Well, not too appropriate but enough. I like that her family is important to her and that she isn’t one of those typical High School characters who thinks about sex and making out too much. It’s also nice that I can relate to her and understand her in some ways and levels.

On the other hand, Peter Kavinsky’s character is all too old for me. Not that I’m complaining but, you know what I mean.

And Josh. I still have to make up my mind whether I like or hate him. Still, he’s a pleasant character.

What really made me act like a crazy old woman was the ending. Man, the ending. Endings are very important in books of every genre. It will determine whether the hours you spent reading was well spent or not. And Jenny Han ended this novel PERFECTLY. I still remember how my jaw ached because of smiling way too much after reading it.

And that’s it. I am officially in-love with Jenny Han and Peter Kavinsky. Although, I kind of hate myself for reading it already because I have to wait for a YEAR (Yes, a year!) in order to read the second book. Still, I REGRET NOTHING. (Lol joke. I really do regret reading it early.)

All in all, To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before is a must-read for people who wants to spend their whole life loving a fictional character. And by that, I mean YOU. All of you.



I acted extra crazy whenever Peter K. says Lara Jean’s name because I have the same name. (The ‘Jean’ part at least.) Yes, I am definitely insane.


My rating: 5/5 stars.

Book Review: Burn for Burn



Note: This is also a re-post and SPOILERS ALERT! 


Lilia, Kat and Mary doesn’t have so much in common– except for one thing; they’ve all been hurt by people they trusted the most. But they are so damn tired of waiting for karma to come and teach those people a lesson. Karma can suck it. They’re big girls now and big girls don’t cry. They get even.


I was so excited in reading Burn for Burn because I was getting kind of tired in paranormal and supernatural stuff from YA. And this novel is like a breath of fresh air. I’ve read it for four hours straight because I literally cannot make myself put the book down. It is so, so amazing and although the ending left me hanging, it is just right because you will definitely look out for book two. (Because if you won’t, you’ll die out of brain explosion, trust me.) To be honest, after I’ve finished the book, I cannot think of anything else but Fire with Fire and what will happen to the characters; praying like crazy for the authors not to kill my favorite ones. (What else can I do?)

Anyway, the entire book is a gem. No. Scratch that. It is a freaking diamond. The characters aren’t perfect but they’re lovable and even though I’m not a pretty, popular or troubled teenage girl, I found myself relating to their problems and their stories.

I was very alive while I’m reading it. Like, whenever Kat says a smart-ass line, I cheer for her. (Literally, cheer for her) Or when Lilia broke the glass of Alex’s SUV. I was screaming “Way to go, Lilia!” at the top of my lungs.  (It was fortunate that my Mom is not in the same room as me.) I also felt all the emotions of the characters like they really exist. A good example’s when Mary (finally!) spilled the beans on how Reeve destroyed her life. I was mad and crying at the same time. It’s just so twisted and I can’t even imagine myself as Mary at that time. It was horrible. More than horrible, even. (If that’s possible.)

I can’t even say what my favorite part of the book is. It’s perfect. It’s wonderful, amazing and I’m running out of positive adjectives.

I won’t keep this review long because I will also write a review of the second book later which I also read for four hours straight. (It’s a 4 hour problem.) (Oooh, Sherlock! Lol.)

With that said, I want to say thank you for the two fantastic ladies who wrote this novel! (Thank you for replying to me in twitter! <3)




To Jenny Han and Siobhan Vivian, thank you very much! I love you both! *virtual group hug!*


My rating: 5/5 stars.